I believe no one grows without pain. Though someone's life is smooth, most of us has to gone through barriers, suffering loneness in desert or even facing death. Growth is a painful procedure.I guess no one wants to grow up, at least I do not.  The whole enviornment around us forces to grow even without negociation.It may be an unhealthy environment I am in now. But how about other's? Do they really like the environment they are living in now? Do they really feel happy everyday now?

 

No one can give me an answer. The only thing I know is I have grown up by suffering, crying, thinking and struggling. No enjoyful so far. Hope is the only straw I am gripping.

 

Little things always change our decision.

夏天了，外面的天气真好。可是我已经对外面的世界失去了兴趣。一切的经历都放在我得论文上了。整天都在想到底这些数据说明什么呢？其实是big mass data。但是为了毕业又不得不make a story. 就这样在家里编故事吧。

看看别人的blog似乎每天都发生新鲜的事情。可是我的生活却很单调乏味。实在想逃离这个单调的生活。哪怕面对一个不可知的未来，也要比整天陷在混沌的现在好多了。

This is a Japanese girl's blog. Her pics of China. It is my very first time to know how beaitiful my country is. Enjoy the pics.

 

I changed my mind suddenly and found the direction for my future. Cool!

最近听说好多朋友都结婚了，身边的朋友，以前的同学。似乎还有很多人在计划着结婚呢？看着别人的结婚照，发现每个人都很美，但是就是没有真诚的幸福感在里面。是不是摄影师过于注重形式了，摆的pose过于professional了，以致于让画中之人感到了现实中的童话，让画外的感到了童话的实现。我忽然想问：结婚是为了什么?你们都准备好了吗？你们都是如何找到另一半的？为什么你认为他们就是你要找得人呢？

太多的问题，有谁能回答呢？